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Be My Girl

by Garrett Johnson

on Vaquero (2017), 16 by 2 (2017)

[Intro]
I'm sorry for everything C
You know who you be
I still think you're the best branch on life's tree
This song's embarrassing for me

[Verse 1]
It was 7th grade in a study hall class
Still a young boy, I was writing, not trynna' get ass
My friend was her friend, he said come with me, I passed
Sat back eating goldfish out the bag on my lap
Kept glancing over at them, and I watched them laugh
She was real pretty talkin' peak of the graph
But I couldn't go over, I was shy, looking back it was daft
But the past stays suppressed not on the surface like a raft
In those years anyway I was still just a draft
Hadn't even yet started to realize my craft
And looking back the whole situation is just a glimpse of the past
The humble scenario before a boy realized his path
Still, if I could go back I'd string myself up out of wrath
Demand I stop being a pansy and approach her, no debating, brass tacks
Beat myself till' I collapsed and still show no slack
Until I approached her and formed the best relationship I lacked

[Chorus]
My muse, my dreams, my ecstasy
My princess, my goddess, always looks so gorgeously
Perfect, forgiving, always making me feel happily
Turns my cursed forests into happy trees
So amazing it's beyond belief
Eyes sparkle more than moonlight on a sapphire sea
A god must exist to have created such beauty
You'll never be my girl, but I love you, truly

[Verse 2]
Fast forward 2 years, freshman year
Still, a lost boy had 27 tears
Now me and her were friends, no longer just peers
I only really saw her around the locker, then she disappeared
First thing she was gorgeous, let me make that clear
Her words had a way of ringing blissfully in my ears
But I was going through a lot of shit, didn't have much cheer
And the thought of her seemed to heal my tears
So, she started being on my mind whether far or near
The feelings kept growing as I lost my fear
I started to realize I wanted her as my dear
I got her number, from god knows where
Started texting her, send jokes, but I was no pear
Flirting like a fuckboi, it wasn't my intention I swear
Got blocked by the goddess but I didn't come out the rear
I'm at fault for instigating my own nightmare

[Chorus]
My muse, my dreams, my ecstasy
My princess, my goddess, always looks so gorgeously
Perfect, forgiving, always making me feel happily
Turns my cursed forests into happy trees
So amazing it's beyond belief
Eyes sparkle more than moonlight on a sapphire sea
A god must exist to have created such beauty
You'll never be my girl, but I love you, truly

[Verse 3]
I had royally fucked up and gave off the wrong feel
I started slipping her poems and letters since text I seared
They neither helped nor hurt so I still feared
That I'd never escape the self-dug pit of despair
As time went on the school year came to an end
A repeating cycle of unblock then block kept happening
As a last resort, I sent letters to her house in hopes to mend
But all it really accomplished was getting me blocked again
Life went on in a state of hide and pretend
That you don't really feel shitty from day start to night end
I was distraught but kept it hidden from friends
It was my burden to worry over my former actions
Summer ceased she joined the clique, it was an award situation
At lunch she sat, lockers stood, between us no words had vocation
She rumored my actions, where we stood became an awkward location
No obligation for her apology there was truth in the accusations

[Chorus]
My muse, my dreams, my ecstasy
My princess, my goddess, always looks so gorgeously
Perfect, forgiving, always making me feel happily
Turns my cursed forests into happy trees
So amazing it's beyond belief
Eyes sparkle more than moonlight on a sapphire sea
A god must exist to have created such beauty
You'll never be my girl, but I love you, truly

[Verse 4]
I couldn't take it anymore, one last letter I sent
I was angry, upset, in love, and hell bent
I wanted to love her as a lover, but she quickly brought that to an end
I'll love her as a brother, I just need her as a friend
The letter worked, we both apologized, our friendship started to mend
There wasn't a day we didn't talk, every day to each other we'd tend
Days turned to months and the world got bright again
I can surely say for her my life I'd lend
She's my world, my best friend, I'd never leave her to fend
I'm young, I'm dumb, so I won't even try and pretend
That I understand fully what I'm saying, or loves a concept I fully comprehend
The only thing I'm sure of is my feelings, and those I don't need to understand
I'd do anything for her, even if it breaks gods plan
She's my go to, my therapist, I trust her with every essence of my man
If something ever happened to her I'd find Christ and throw hands
Once I dethrone him for her back I'd demand

[Chorus | Outro]
My muse, my dreams, my ecstasy
My princess, my goddess, always looks so gorgeously
Perfect, forgiving, always making me feel happily
Turns my cursed forests into happy trees
So amazing it's beyond belief
Eyes sparkle more than moonlight on a sapphire sea
A god must exist to have created such beauty
You'll never be my girl, but I love you, truly