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Monster

by Boondox

on Abaddon (2015)

[Hook]
Monster, how should I feel?
Creatures lie here
Looking through the window
Monster, how should I feel?
Creatures lie here
Looking through the window
[Verse 1]
I'm not afraid of the dark
But I'm afraid of my heart
And I'm afraid that everything is gonna fall apart
Always afraid that things will never get better
I went from writing down rhymes
To typing suicide letters
Diagnosed with paranoia
You can check my prescription
I'm a manic depressive
One of my many conditions
I'm not a prophet though I say it
But I'm seeing a vision
My life, it was beyond it
On a one-way collision
If ignorance is bliss
Then I'm devoid of any sorrows
Cause I don't wanna know the outcome
Of today or tomorrow
I just wanna hide inside my own private Hell
How can I ever get to Heaven
When so many angels fell
I'm just a human being
I'm just only being human
With eternity and judgement
From another always looming
It's a wonder that I made it
With these voices in my head
With all these monsters at my window
Staring at me in my bed
[Hook]
Monster, how should I feel?
Creatures lie here
Looking through the window
Monster, how should I feel?
Creatures lie here
Looking through the window
Monster, how should I feel?
Creatures lie here
Looking through the window
[Verse 2]
If you're a friend to me or kin to me
An enemy or into me
I'm begging on a bended knee
Come and put an end to me
Put me out my misery
Permanently no injury
I'm tired of fighting entities
I'm running out of energy
Feel like a lost boy
Searching for the answers
Just waitin' on tragedy
A heart attack or even cancer
So many monsters hiding
Waiting round the corner for us
If life is like a song
I'm at the verse and searching for the chorus
Maybe I should stop and take a moment
Put it in perspective
Maybe I should take a knife
And take a life and get injected
I just wanna go out
On my own fucking terms
Knowing it was me that put me
In the dirt and with the worms
I think I'll pop another pill
Try to heal the ill
Wash it down with gasoline
Light a match and that's for real
But I'll just probably go to sleep
And try to clear my head
Hiding from these monsters
At my window underneath my bed
[Hook]
Monster, how should I feel?
Creatures lie here
Looking through the window
Monster, how should I feel?
Creatures lie here
Looking through the window
Monster, how should I feel?
Creatures lie here
Looking through the window
Monster, how should I feel?
Creatures lie here
Looking through the window
Monster, how should I feel?
Creatures lie here
Looking through the window
Monster, how should I feel?
Creatures lie here
Looking through the window